As stated in the title of my blog, I am an African American living in Poland. I live in Warsaw. For whatever reason, I have been obsessed with the thought of "What does this mean?" I am not sure. I realize that I look different than most of the people I come in contact with on a daily basis (sometimes, I look different than ALL the people I contact during a day). It can be very strange. But, in all honesty, does it make a difference in the way I live? I think so ... I just cannot put it into words. I feel different here sometimes and to stop from "freaking out", I have to dismiss those feelings. In theory, I know we are the same. There are people here I relate to because we share common likes or dislikes or hobbies or whatever./ But, when sitting on the tram or going into a mall and absolutely no one is of African origin ... I can often get a little uneasy. Perhaps this is a carry-over from living in the US where race is still a distinguishing factor (despite talk of it being otherwise). I cannot imagine going anywhere in the US and not seeing another Black person. Of course, there are exceptions. I have been to small towns in America that have no people of color. Somehow, this was not as unnerving. Here in Warsaw, it can become so very unnerving for me. I really cannot give a reason to this except that I may be the culprit. Maybe it is me that is seeing and feeling all of this and others are simply seeing an American. I don’t know.
All that said, living here is an experience that is unique. I know two other Black people from the states that live here. I do not get to talk to them much because of many reasons. Nonetheless, we are a pretty rare breed, I think. The question still is what do I do with this situation that it may be helpful to another person in some way?